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Monday, March 11, 2013

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Hi blogger. Gue udah 4 bulan ga nulis blog, jadi memutuskan buat nulis lagi. Inget jaman SMP dulu rajin banget nulis blog, sekarang rasanya malaaaas banget soalnya udah sibuk sekolah. :X

Anyway, less in 3 month I will be a 12th grader. My first thought was: OH SH*T HELL NOOOOO, UAN LAGI!!!!! Gue belum mau jadi kelas 3 lagi, mengingat waktu gue UAN pas kelas 9 (3 SMP) it was the scariest nightmare that ever happened in my life. Dan nilai gue ancur banget and I got really depressed dan nilai gue ancur banget pas kelas 10 dan blablablabla akhirnya semuanya lancar lagi sejak gue kelas 11. *thanks God*

Meanwhile, as you know, sebagai fansnya EXO, gue lagi stress nungguin mereka ga comeback-comeback juga setelah 11 bulan. *gila gue bosen banget ngulangin 6 lagu mereka itu-itu mereka selama hampir setahun* terus ditambah lagi katanya mereka mau comeback tanggal 31 Maret ini taunya cuma harapan palsu doang. ~~sebenernya gue seneng sih soalnya gue lagi gak punya duit nanti aja comebacknya kalo gue lagi punya duit HAHA!~~

Jadi gue lagi bingung berusaha ngelupain soal comebacknya EXO, terus tadi siang adek gue tiba-tiba muter lagu Long Kiss Goodbye-nya Halcali which itu soundtracknya Naruto dan otomatis gue langsung nostalgia waktu jaman gue suka Naruto dari kelas 5 SD - 7 SMP. Mengingat gimana susahnya nyari soundtrack-soundtracknya karen dulu rumah gue belum pasang internet, gimana gue harus ke warnet tiap mau download soundtracknya + ngeliat video fanmade-nya di YouTube *itu berhasil buat gue nyaris nangis di warnet tiap liat video fanmadenya Naruto, gue juga ngga ngerti kenapa* dan berakhir keasikan main warnet, terus pulang kesorean terus dimarahin pas sampe rumah.

Dan gue juga inget. Dulu jam 6 sore, gue udah mandi, udah duduk manis depan TV nungguin Naruto. I always excited kalo denger opening theme barunya Naruto. Kalo gue ga sempet ke warnet download lagunya, pasti gue record pake hp terus waktu mau tidur selalu gue ulang-ulang. Dan itu terus gue lakuin sampe kelas 7.

Bias gue dulu di Naruto (dan jelas ini bias semua cewek-cewek yang suka Naruto) yaitu si Sasuke. Waktu SD gue sering banget teriak-teriak di kelas fangirling soal Sasuke sampe pulsa gue sering banget abis gara-gara setiap nonton Naruto sambil sms-an sama temen-temen gue yang suka naruto. Isi tiap sms pasti tipikal kayak gini:

"YA ALLAH, LO LIAT GAK SIH SI SASUKE TADI??? GILA GANTENG ABIS!!!!"
"KAPAN GUE PUNYA PACAR KAYAK SASUKE??? PENGEN BANGET GUE!!!"
"IH NGAPAIN SIH ITU SI -insert karakter cewek Naruto disini- NEMPEL-NEMPEL SAMA SASUKE??? IH GILA GUE IRI BANGET!!!!"

I still have the secondhand embarrassment until now.

Tapi sumpah gue sms-an sama mereka epic banget, kalo bisa gue kembaliin lagi sms-sms itu, gue mau banget. Pasti bacanya bakal ketawa-ketawa sambil nahan malu.

Oh ya, suatu hari gue tiba-tiba bosen sama Sasuke, terus gue tiba-tiba jadi suka sama Naruto gak tau kenapa, dan pas disekolah gue ngaku sama temen-temen gue, langsung lah gue abis di cecar (in joking way, of course) "Ih? Lo kesambet apa coba?? Jelas-jelas Sasuke jauuuh lebih ganteng gitu dari Naruto. Eh bagus deh, jadi yang suka Sasuke jadi makin dikit!" dan berakhir dengan ketawa-tawa.

Nah back to the topic, gara-gara adek gue muter lagu Long Kiss Goodbye, gue jadi inget pairing favorite gue dulu (bahkan sampai sekarang): SasuSaku

Gue selalu mikir kalo SasuSaku itu too good to be true makanya mereka ga pernah bersama, awalnya gue juga cuek-cuek aja soal mereka, bahkan pas Sasuke yang mau pergi dari Konoha, gue juga cuek. Sampe gue ngecek tags SasuSaku di tumblr dan menemukan potongan-potongan komik ini.

Gue nangis.
Nangis beneran
Nangis kenceng banget.
The last panel is just too much for my heart to handle.

Maksud gue mau NOSTALGIA tuh yang enak-enak ya, bukan nostalgia yang BIKIN NANGIS BEGINI. Gue bener-bener nangis dari abis maghrib sampe jam 8, sampe inget belum mandi. Gue bener-bener sedih mereka ga pernah 'jadi', padahal si Sakura udah confess kalo dia suka beneran sama Sasuke. Tapi Sasuke ga pernah. Gue tau si Sasuke juga suka sama Sakura cuma dia munafik aja. SASUKE LO MUNAFIK!!!! *kebawa emosi sendiri*

*ahem* Teman-teman, jangan munafik kayak Sasuke ya~~ *kicked*

Terus ditambah tag-tag fanart di tumblr + dA yang bikin gue makin nangis. Baru sekali ini gue nangis karena sebuah pairing, anime pula, bukan beneran, gue ga pernah nangis karena suatu pairing but this one is just too much. Di tambah lagi gue nemu gifs ini:

© fuckyeahsasusaku @ tumblr
He threw away his love.

SASUKE YOU SON OF A B*TCH.

Oke sorry gue dari daritadi cursing melulu ya, tapi ini bikin gue capek banget soalnya gue tadi nangis-nangis. Dan ga cuma itu tiba-tiba winamp gue ngeshuffle lagunya Kate Nash yang Nicest Thing (here's the link if you want to listen.) dan ditambah liriknya ada yang begini:

(...)
"You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something.

I wish I was your favorite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile
(...)

I wish you'd hold my hand
When I was upset
(...)

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see if we could be something."

Gue makin nangis.
Gue makin galau.
~~Gue makin benci sama Sasuke.~~

Dan yang parahnya gue ngerepeat lagu ini berkali-kali dan malah bikin gue sakit hati. Gue juga heran kalo lagi sensi semua lagu bawaannya malah bikin gue makin sensi.

Akhirnya sesi menggalau itu pun selesai, gue yakin gue ga akan selesai galau kalo ga nemu drabbles ini:

“Come on, Daddy! Tell us!”

Sasuke groans. His son and daughter have been nagging him nonstop for the past twenty minutes to pick between them. Sasuke knows the pain of not being the favourite and he would never instill that emotion into one of his kids. He shakes his head for the thousandth time before closing his eyes and draping an arm over his forehead.

“Daddy, we know you’re not asleep!”

Sasuke ignores them. He wishes Sakura was here. She is doing her shift at the hospital and there is a big surgery happening today. She left at four in the morning and is expected to come back in the evening. He lets out a sharp breath when his four year old son jumps on his stomach. He finally opens his eyes to see his daughter peeking from behind his son whilst sitting on his legs. They are both staring at him with big, expectant eyes.

“No,” Sasuke replies sternly.

They don’t look fazed in the least. When he hears the lock of their house click, he knows Sakura is home. He ushers his kids off of him so that they could greet Mommy. The kids eagerly agree and run to the door. Sasuke stands in back, smirking at Sakura. She looks tired, he notices, but she also seems happy to be with her kids.

“What are you guys up to?” She smiles, picking up her daughter and taking her son’s small hand.

“Daddy won’t pick a favourite!”

Sakura raises an eyebrow, “That’s easy. Daddy’s favourite is me.”

© reviee @ tumblr

AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!! *flips everything*

ps: maafkan gue kalo post ini super ga jelas. Gue kurang tidur banget beberapa hari ini dan ngebuat gue nostalgia ga jelas. T__T

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